mom

tbilisi, 09.2021, exposed at sasha kirienkova home gallery. raw clay sculpture (mom II), paper object (mom I), walnut, deflated balloon, knife, texts, red light. i took a taboo about expressing aggression to our mothers to my own extreme of aggression i couldnt cope with at the moment and expressed it using clay and the knife from my grandfather. before that i was trying to deal with my feelings using paper. all my life before that i was using self harm mostly. then this story started to develop itself and i found a walnut-sized embryo i had at the age of 23 (made an abortion). my mom gave me birth when she was 23, so i found it funny. when i was going to install the exposition, i found a deflated balloon as an extension of this topic. because the day i was doing an abortion the father of the baby (an abusive addict) gifted me a balloon to make me smile and it felt like a celebration tho it was the hardest day of my life. i still think that decision not to give birth was the rightest one in my case. after exhibition i burned the paper and dissolved the sculpture in water